Hard to live in a house so full of negativity. My son yells at me a lot that I'm "annoying" and to leave him alone. I try to remember his Asperger's, etc., but it still hurts and hear it multiple times a day. Husband always negative toward me, complaining and finding fault in everything I do, threatening to make the cats go outside because the litter box smells, but I don't have any litter at the moment to change it. He knows the cats are that button to push to get me riled up. Never mind that I lost all my 10 in fire in December that he was the same way about. Nothing's changed even after that nightmare. Arguing, telling me to leave, etc. This has gone on my whole married life - 11 years. But I'm too afraid to take that step, and sometimes there are those plateaus where things are okay and you get comfortable for awhile. Still - good things in my life the next 2 days... Seeing my nephew and his girlfriend today. Tomorrow meeting up with friends I hadn't seen in over a decade. Nervous but grateful they included me. That I have people in my life who think of me and care even though we rarely talk anymore and have our own lives. I'm afraid I'll feel very awkward. I cut my hair too short the other day and look terrible. But I hope to enjoy it.