Hi Sibelius. I think if they were truly your friends they will accept you back if you go to them and tell them you have been sick and are getting help. You need to remember that getting better is a slow process. One day you will be able to see how far you have come. I know it can be frustrating to wait between T appointments, but you have us here, and if you have a PC you can find lots of things to read about what you are going through.