I'm sorry if this is off-topic. My T has been on vacation for 17 days and she told me to contact her, and we'll set my next appt. During the time she was gone, I missed her but then kind of stopped because it felt pointless, and it doesn't change anything anyway. I should text her in 2 days, but I can't shake the thought of never contacting her again, to just ''dissapear''. I know it would hurt me badly, but that's how I deal with things - leave and ''enjoy'' my misery. Does anyone feel like that? It's such an awful feeling. I want to see her, but I don't.. What would you do?

Sorry for this being long and thank you.