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Originally Posted by Hellion
I don't have a significant other really, though have met someone I have seen a few times nothing official as of this point though. I do find it hard to be open to people I am close to about how I feel when it comes to the PTSD/depression stuff...I don't want to bring them down to but they also get concerned if seem upset at all so then I end up exhausting myself trying to put on an act while thinking my head is likely to explode(not litterally though sometimes that wouldn't suprise me).
I saw one therapist and after my first meeting I chose not to go back because I was worried the therapist couldn't handle it...almost seemed like just what I said within an hour was too much.
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how much of that was your fear, and how much of that was actually the therapist being overwhelmed? I know I fear that a lot with my therapists, but I am learning ot trust that they will take care of themselves, and I learn to trust that they will help take care of me too. It's a tough process, but maybe it would be worth a shot to go back? it's good to have at least one place to be able to feel safe in revealing who you are and what you struggle with (at least that is how I feel about it. as scary as the trust process is, and as scary as it is to disclose some of the darker, icky parts, it's a huge relief when those parts are accepted).
Also, I totally get the "head exploding" feeling sometimes too! (and I wouldn't be all that surprised if I spontaneously compust at some point because of it, lol).