hi tanja
long ago before I got on meds, I drank a lot...to the black out state...just to make it all go away.....I finally got sober for over 13 years.....I am now successfully medicated and never have the urge to drink. my meds work great. I drink now and then, one or two, never to excess, those days are long gone. I realize I wasn't an alcoholic. it was the mental illness and self medicating that drove the urge to drink. I wouldn't recommend it for you so fresh in your sobriety. as I said, I had 13 years sober and stability behind me before I drank again. definitely talk to pdoc. with all the meds out there and some patience you can find the right mix to get you stable to. good luck.