how much of that was your fear, and how much of that was actually the therapist being overwhelmed? I know I fear that a lot with my therapists, but I am learning ot trust that they will take care of themselves, and I learn to trust that they will help take care of me too. It's a tough process, but maybe it would be worth a shot to go back? it's good to have at least one place to be able to feel safe in revealing who you are and what you struggle with (at least that is how I feel about it. as scary as the trust process is, and as scary as it is to disclose some of the darker, icky parts, it's a huge relief when those parts are accepted).

Also, I totally get the "head exploding" feeling sometimes too! (and I wouldn't be all that surprised if I spontaneously compust at some point because of it, lol).