Hi, so I received a letter from a hospital today saying that I have a urinary tract ultrasound examination next week. I am a bit nervous because:

* I had a letter sent by the urologist I saw about a month ago saying that they were thinking about doing a "post-void residual". I look it up and it mentions that I am going to be catheterized. Eeek! I cannot imagine the amount of pain I will be in when they put this plastic tube...up there. However, the letter I received today doesn't mention a post-void residual so I am not sure what's going to be done.

* Obvious one, I don't know what to expect when I get there. I don't know whether they'll want to do a physical examination or just get straight to it. I want to see for myself what my kidneys and urinary tract look like, I have always wanted to see what my insides look like on an ultrasound whenever I have had one but the sonographer (person doing the ultrasound) has always kept telling me to lie back and relax. But I want to see! That probably sounds weird but I am just interested!

* Another obvious one, I am not sure whether anything will be found on ultrasound but I have my suspicions that something may show up. I shouldn't have done it but I have researched my symptoms and they point to either a "neurogenic bladder" or reflux involving the kidney tubes. Well, the first one I mentioned is caused by things like Parkinson's, Multiple Sclerosis and brain tumors. I suspect I could have Parkinson's because I have a tremor in my left hand, but that is it except the bladder issues. Multiple Sclerosis, my mum has but I had an MRI done on my head and nothing came back abnormal. And brain tumors...I very much doubt it. But why??? And will the problems with my bladder be finally solved? I hope so, I really do.

I think I have a terrible case of nerves at the moment and thinking up things that haven't even been considered. But, I guess that's what nerves do.