Hey, everyone. So I just binged a total of 2,000 calories and I feel disgusting. I want to puke out that cheesecake and every other unnecessary calorie I consumed. Basically, I've been on an 800 calorie restriction for a few months now and I recently decreased it to 700. Along with my regular visits to the gym, I was making progress and hoping to reach my goal not too far from now. But I hit rock bottom today. All of my emotions, stresses, fears and whatnot just overwhelmed me. I hate myself for losing control and eating like the fat pig that I am. I'm trying to tell myself that I'll go to the gym longer for the rest of the week to burn it off and stuff but I just feel so gross and disgusted. I've disappointed myself yet again and I can't stand the sight of my own reflection. I suffer from BDD and have been staring at my imperfect body with more and more hatred. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've been considering SI more and more often lately and I feel so lost..