Well, after months of battling this monster alone in isolation I came forward to my family last night. It felt like I was a kid standing on a stage with all eyes fixed on me. I never thought telling my family would be so difficult and emotionally nerve racking!

This is my first step towards trying to pry myself out of isolation and destructive habits in hopes of beginning to build a foundation of support and understanding.
Has anyone else ever had a difficult time coming forward with your struggles?

I've kept my family in the dark for awhile now out of fear of being a "burden" or being judge though I know family would never do such. I'm BEYOND anxious right now as part of this new plan is to be held accountable. Such a simple task but with years of keeping silent behind me it's going to be rather difficult to adjust to.

Does anyone have any pointers or advice on how to curb some of this anxiety and ways to start being more open? I blog and have been doing so for years. I've given them all the links now and though it's been public for years I've hidden behind a pen name & no one that's truly known me has seen it. It was the easiest way for them to get a true glimpse into what's been going on in my world.

Any advice would be WONDERFUL!
Thank you!