i've been on about a dozen antidepressants :P tms isn't covered by my insurance nor is it even in my price range. ect isn't really either (although it's partially covered by insurance), but if worse comes to worse, my H insists i talk to my parents who are very well off. except they don't understand my depression (thus why i am dealing with it now instead of having had it dealt with when i was a suicidal teenager/college student). it's like some people get nervous talking about sex, my parents get nervous talking about depression.