Wow, HamsterGirl. This is such a complex situation. Are you sure than you can sue after all this time? In the US, there are statutes of limitations on some things, but of course, we have seen the rash of RC child molestation cases, so I guess it's pretty long.

On morphine. No wonder you are depressed! This is a major, major downer. I am an old-time hippie drug user, stayed away from H bec. I at least had sense enough to know this could wreck me. I had it once during surgery, and for my system, it is a very powerful medication. I know you have to take it for the pain, this is not a game of altered state of consciousness for you. But still, it has to be affecting your state of mind, no matter how controlled the dosage may be.

Well, I can't get into the family thing. Families can be very complicated. When I was in college, I used to think with every vacation that I would return to a perfect sitcom family welcome, but it never went like that, and finally I "got it" that it would never be the way I wanted it to be.

And I moved to Spain for about a year to get as far away from my mom as I could. In those days, there were no phones, so no calling me up with long, sad tales of her problems.

No wonder I am such a whiner. Did I ever have any example of how to be a happy, well-balanced person? Of course, poor old mom probably suffers from depression, too, even though her stiff-upper-lip stoic philosophy will not allow her to ever admit it.

I am so glad that you are still here, still posting, still offering comfort and accepting what little we have to offer you.

I hope this is a good day for you, Shelley.