I wasn't at your session, Almeda. But... I loved it just as well.

You experienced real emotion in session, and you kept with it. You said that now you finally got him to admit that he cares about you. How do you feel right now? Do you feel like he cares about you? I hope so. You mentioned that you feel bad that he is hurt. Next session (this is your assignment from me, ha ha) I think you need to ask him if he is hurt by what happened. Sometimes we reflect on own feelings onto our Ts, so it's important to check in with him to make sure your perception is accurate, you know what I mean? When I read my journal to my T last week (in which I completely cursed him out and called him every name possible), I was obsessed with the fact that he was going to be hurt and offended. I checked in with him about this a number of times. His responses helped me to see that this is a unique situation, and it is okay to do this to him. The idea of experiencing that intense emotion in T is to be able to demonstrate that emotion without judgement. If you feel that your T is hurt and you feel bad about displaying anger, you should definitely bring this up to him. You want to feel comfortable in all of your emotions when you are with T. Anger, sadness, whatever. If you spend too much time feeling bad that you think you made him feel horrible, the full benefit of releasing emotion with your T will be limited. And then you might be scared to do it again in the future. I think it sounds like you had a great, breakthrough-type session. My only concern is that you check-in with T next week-- to clarify what's going on with your thoughts as far as him feeling bad as a result of what you said.