OK people like to tell me that pdocs/T's have feelings too and OK... it is true I do think. (OK I know.) The deal here is that you are having your own therapy and it is important that you get this out. He encouraged it and as I like to think... He is a big boy and that is the roll he has taken on.

So you beaned him... You also told him you love him. I know it is not a trade off but I am sure that touched his heart. I think that T's challenge us and I think it is o.k. that we challenge them on occasion. You released to more than your T... you released and shared alot of your past in that visit. He, on some level, knows this.

You have given him your heart... the good and the difficult part. You gave him your insides....almost I think down to your toes. This is actually ... if one thinks of it...from you who has such difficulties with this... a major compliment to him... oddly enough.

I would correct myself in relation to my earlier note that your insurance company probably would have probs paying if you went 2x a week if only paying for 1x. That seems questionable but otherwise... I stand with my earlier statement. I do understand how frustrating that is for everyone involved. It is abundant with managed care, psychiatric or medical... It has rightfully ticked off society. You are his patient.

I think that you might be able to back off the insurance issue...but there are some connections I think there that might need to be persued. I do not know. You and your T would know better.

Do you know how old your T is and how long he has been in practice? This insurance issue should not be a new issue for him and the emotions connected are not unusual. Now... getting them out of YOU .. that might have surprised him. ?