I havea disability hearing Thursday and I've worried so badly I'm vomiting and just sick. This isn't what I wanted for myself, but, I can no longer function in public. It's in downtown indy, I won't know anyone in the room and I don't even know my attorney. I'm terrified but I really need this and can't survive another decline. This is such a nightmare and I want to wake up. I only hope I can do it. The whole process is cruel in my opinion and very inconsistent as to who gets it and I find it hard to believe that I have a fair shot. Hope my lawyer is good. I don't want to do this.