You're near me...(I think, right?)
You can call the national suicide hotline and it will direct your call to the nearest crisis call center.
In San Diego, we can request the PERT team, who come with the police and are actual mental health professionals (maybe you have the same/similar?)
Here in San Diego, you cannot go to a crisis house if you're in that much danger. You have to minimum go through a 72 hour hold at the hospital. The crisis house is a transitional place once your stable.

I'm sorry you're struggling so much. I hope things get better soon