{{{{{{{{Wendy}}}}}}}}}

I can just feel you wanting to shake me, and I know.

Ironically enough, he overdraws the acount (less than 2 weeks old already) and then I have to fill in the ledger for him since he can't do it himself. Cashiers fill in the checks for him, but I get the priviledge of knowing exactly how far in the hole he is.

That's why I called my new pdoc yesterday morning. I can feel the limits approaching. When I get stressed, I spend. Never knew why till I was dx with bipolar - I just do it and figure I'm going down anyway........then I scramble to pull myself out of it.

I know there's no magic wand, no wonderful answer......I don't have the guts to just go, or the ability to believe that I could work/manage on my own. I couldn't work the hours I need to and worry about Alex. I'm still trying for disability, which would give me the flexibility to take care of myself and still be there for Alex.

Gee, time to get ready for work.


Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard