Criticism of any kind. If it is not presented to me out of love and just wanting me to improve, it send me into a downward spiral of self hate and the inner critic get a foot hold.

Those who agreed with me and were on my side in private but then when confronted throw me under the bus and clam they never felt the way I did. It makes me hate the human race and brings out the feeling of hopelessness and suicidal intentions.

Change of plans or events did not go in order the way I laid them out in my head. This mainly has to do with travel away from home. This sets off aggression stemming from fear. It triggers fear and I do not know why. So I become nasty and I lose all patience.

Seeing people I know become successful. Made it through college, or just succeed in everything they try. It reminds me of how broken I have been. How much I spent my life trying to hide from everyone as much as I can which meant doing as little as I could to get by. Reminds me how I do not respond to feelings the way the norm does. It shoves it shoves everything in my face. Just not being able to feel happy for them shows me I suck. This sets off a worthless, never will be good enough part, might as well die.