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Originally Posted by troubledteen19
Hey, everyone. So I just binged a total of 2,000 calories and I feel disgusting. I want to puke out that cheesecake and every other unnecessary calorie I consumed. Basically, I've been on an 800 calorie restriction for a few months now and I recently decreased it to 700. Along with my regular visits to the gym, I was making progress and hoping to reach my goal not too far from now. But I hit rock bottom today. All of my emotions, stresses, fears and whatnot just overwhelmed me. I hate myself for losing control and eating like the fat pig that I am. I'm trying to tell myself that I'll go to the gym longer for the rest of the week to burn it off and stuff but I just feel so gross and disgusted. I've disappointed myself yet again and I can't stand the sight of my own reflection. I suffer from BDD and have been staring at my imperfect body with more and more hatred. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've been considering SI more and more often lately and I feel so lost..
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I very curious about your low calorie intake as well? I will have to agree it's no wonder you binged!
But that say, my goodness don't beat your self up (haha easier said that done I know I know). Your body was just asking for the extra calories you may have been depriving it off ? (Not sure but it seems to make sense
I really do feel for you, I suffer the same and so taking my own advice sometimes would be helpful. If you can get through this binge without the purge, you will be my hero.
. I haven't been able to yet, thank goodness it has been a while since my last binge. But it is the monster in the closet.