Dear, dear Alex,
You are putting yourself through hell! Don't do it to yourself.

More likely than not, he is busy with his LIFE, which he has and yes, you are IN it.

Pdocs and Ts are just people! You know that ...you are studying to become one. And a fine one you'll be!

Try to let time pass. He will be back before you know it. Ts care very much about their clients, if they are any good. I'm sure your T cares about you and you can bet that he's grateful to read your email letting him know how you're doing.

Your thoughts are not having any effect, whatsoever, on his baby. Sounds like you may have freaked yourself out a little, is all. Try to remember to breathe and stay in your wise mind. I'm always very impressed when I read your posts. You obviously have a very wise mind.

Take good care of yourself. PM me any time if you want to talk offline.
Okie