to AppalachianAxis, I am perfectly happy with who I am as an individual. I of course accept myself and am happy that I'm not confused about my sexuality like most older men are.

however I'm not looking for someone to sugarcoat things in order to make me feel good about myself; I'm thoroughly seeking info on how to help myself --- a young boy who is stuck living with a physically and mentally draining older brother.
and no, once again I cannot take myself out of this situation. I have no other family to turn to so I can only hope to deal with this situation as best I can. I only posted this to receive HELPFUL ADVICE

so thank you to those who were actually attempting to help instead of being a nuisance by going out of their way and taking the time to post their miserably rude and sarcastic opinion. that doesn't help whatsoever, instead it makes the miserable poster feel good or justified in some way.

P.S- not once did I say homophobia is the same as hating or disliking gays.... you should go and post your response from whatever other forum post you read that on. I am also not hoping for my brother to approve of my sexuality, but rather to understand it and be mature about it instead of being a complete bigot about it.

finding something repulsive doesn't automatically mean that a person has to be immature and go out of their way to express their thoughts on the subject. that's the difference between a mature person and an immature person --- the patience to keep ones thoughts to themselves.