i kind of feel the same way and wish desperately that there was a DBT group offered near me but the neareat is 1.5 hours away which is ridiculous. how can there be such demand and NO ONE IS FILLING IT?

Go to dbt. try it. what do you have left to lose? absolutely nothing. You may as well give it a try, kiddo. it could change your life and you dont even realize bc where you are right now is so dark.