I need to thank everyone for their heartfelt replies and warm wishes. I wasn't sure about posting this at first, and afterwards I almost deleted it. I'm just so ashamed, plus a lot of women in this situation get labeled negatively.
I am beginning to realize now that it wasn't my fault, but that negative self-talk that I've been battling for years is still trying to rear its ugly head. I'm dealing with this the best I can right now. I DID report him and went to the hospital. It was one of the scariest decisions I ever had to make. But I DID it, so I think I've taken the first step in overcoming this.
Your support means SO much to me.

((((((((EVERYONE)))))))))))))


<div class="foot">(Edited by lost_lonely on 08/14/04 04:12 PM.)</div>
<div class="foot">(Edited by lost_lonely on 08/14/04 04:14 PM.)</div>