I feel fine after I watch porn...meaning I feel less depressed at the moment. It's like a fix for me. When I don't watch it I feel angry or sad. I feel emotional.
I do EMDR which is a trauma therapy and I was wondering if it really mattered how these things effect me during therapy. I'd like to believe EMDR is powerful enough to make me un-numb, but maybe I need to put some effort in staying away from my addiction to get in touch with my feelings.