((((((((( Muse )))))))))

When you finally get to actually have therapy, it's scary. I want you to know that I sobbed through my first session with my pdoc and my therapist. I don't mean little tears coming down my face, I mean soul and body rendering sobs to the point I couldn't breathe.

You are not letting your Dad down. You are not!!!!!!!! You are making an effort to bring healing into your life. If you had diabetes, you would want to take insulin. Your Dad would want you to have your insulation.

It's clear that your Mom doesn't understand and is in denial over her own problems. Please, please don't let her stop you from getting the help you need. If you go to the pdoc and t and they tell you that you're fine, good for you! If you go to the pdoc and t and they say you need some help, good for you. It's a win-win situation.

The smart ones get help, muse. Also, if you need to rant, just keep right on doing it.

Hugs,

Jan