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Originally Posted by strangeskies
Hi. I'm a 24 year old guy from Cairo, Egypt. I have never been outside of Egypt. I have borderline personality disorder as diagnosed by pychiatrist and I don't know what else I might have undiagnosed.
But I feel that I am alone. I feel that nobody can help me. I feel that life working on the principle "I got mine, **** you". That nobody gives a ****. That my sibilings can be right beside me and not want anything to do with me. I haven't spoke with my voice in months. Only when I ask things at the shops is the only use for my voice. Other than that, nobody cares to hear it.
Please help me. I'm so tired and alone. And nobody wants anything to do with me anymore, I can't ask help from anybody.
Please help me.
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Hello Strangeskies: I'm so sorry for your plight. I'm an older person. But, still, you & I have a few things in common. My parents were also older when I was born. I was an only child. I was often a target for neighborhood bullies outside of school until my parents moved us out to a rural area. At that point, I was just alone, except when I was in school, where I was bullied both verbally & physically for years.
I'm in the U.S. I grew up at a time, & in a place, where one simply did not talk about one's problems with anyone. Everyone knew about the bullying I endured. But nobody cared. So I learned to just suck it up & keep to myself as much as possible. As a result, as you did, I learned not to trust anyone & to keep pretty-much to myself. To this day, all of these decades later, I still prefer to be alone, although I did manage to get married along the way. I haven't been employed now for over a dozen years & I spend most of my time on the internet too (although recently I've begun trying to pry myself away from it a bit.)
I did want to comment with regard to your love of Finland. I grew up in the northeastern part of the U.S. But as a teenager, I developed a love for the state of Alaska. I always wanted to go there & perhaps live there. Unfortunately, I never went there &, at this point, I probably never will. But, as a teenager & young adult, Alaska was my dream!
Your post, both in the title & at the end, said: "please help." So I'd like to ask what you thought of as being the help you might receive as a result of your post here on PC. I read the Reply from the other young man from Egypt who said he is in similar straits. I've also communicated, here on PC, with 1 or 2 other young Egyptian men whose circumstances are similar.
Although we live in very different countries, I can relate to some of what you experienced. And I know, from my contacts with other young Egyptian men, that therapy is near impossible to come by. So, if you can, please write about what you envision would be helpful. Thanks.