It might be good to leave it at the door for a while ... I still have to work on that myself ... Sometimes I can get my self so stirred up and over-wrought that I literally have to firmly tell myself out loud to STOP IT! ... I can only imagine what a handful I've been to others when I'm throwing myself headlong into a self-destructive phase ... I wish you the best in getting through this with as little damage to yourself and others as possible.