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Old Aug 03, 2014, 04:11 PM
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Originally Posted by shamon86 View Post
I'm at the point now where I don't necessarily want to die, I just don't want to live.
It can be soothing to feel like we can just rest from the pressures of everyday life, that there's an eddy where we can just sit and tread water.

The problem is there is no magic cure, no one course, pill, special words T can say and our life will flow more smoothly afterward so we can cope easier and go on to achieve great things. Life is a learning experience and for most of us here I think we did not learn enough/the "right" things in the first 20 years, before we were declared "adults" and on our own. I finished with therapy when I was nearly 55. I'm going to be 64 this year and, looking back (I started therapy when I was 20) I still think that 35 years were worth "it" and the only way my life and Me could "come out"/happen and I'm proud it all came out like it did and I am who I am.

Give up on thinking about the "next big thing" and just see what you can learn from the "next" thing. I would take the CBT therapy, see what I could learn, not think of whether or not I passed/failed it (that being based on someone else's assessment since you have never taken it so can't judge whether it was a good idea for your life until you give it a try and judging it "not helpful" is about the CBT therapy, not about You!) You cannot fail on the road to becoming yourself!

But mostly I would think, "What else am I doing/trying?" The clearer you can get on what you want and work on trying to get that for yourself, is a good thing and trying anything to get more knowledge about yourself falls into being part of that good thing.
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Thanks for this!
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