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MotownJohnny,
Thank you for the reply. And yeah, I have it hard but there are other people who have things worse than me, and there are countries that have it worse than Egypt. There isn't anything to do as the world just turns its back to us and rather forget and go to be distracted by who of the famous billionares cheated on who and get drunk and watch TV and such dumb things.
The Skeezyks,
Thank you for that. Yes, everybody knows of the bullying here too. There are videos of how teachers are torturing children in school in Egypt on youtube. It's out there for everyone to see but no one gives a damn. Parents still send their children to be broken in school. When I was in school I never started trouble and I was the "best" student, as in I just wanted to sit alone quiet. But when kids started bullying me, the teachers punished both the victim and victimizer. There was one time a kid made a cut above my eyelid and I still have the scar from it to this day, and that day I was also punished by the teacher instead of being offered comfort and support that I deserved. It is my mistake for sitting here quiet, and it is my mistake that a kid started hitting me. It is my mistake for being in school. It is simply my mistake for existing at all. And I apparently need punishment for it. It is very low, when I am the one who is hurting and in pain but people only come to hurt me more. But that's the way it happens, also from my own family. Which is why I don't talk a word to them anymore, but which also makes me lonelier. But it's easier to be lonely than to be hurt. Anyway, it just looks like everything is out there for everyone to see but people geniunly don't give a damn. They rather watch Turkish TV series and talk how Mubarak wasn't bad and watch football than try to solve anything or listen or connect or support anyone here.
I know what would help me. To move away from Egypt, to get a chance to learn or to work, to get a better place. But I was just saying help in general. Just that I feel alone and there is nowhere I could ask help from and I just want to cry for help from anywhere. I am gifted with a good brain and it should be something precious but here nobody recognizes or appreciates it. I didn't have a chance to learn nor to work. I've learned English and Finnish all on my own and a lot of computer things, even though I had no chance to get a real education and no real chance of help from others. Finnish is a difficult language and I read people on internet say it takes 4 years to learn Finnish, and others who go to Finnish classes or have a teacher, or people who even have lived in Finland for years but all write how they suffer with it. I learned Finnish in a year, on my own. Now I can write with Finns online in Finnish, without needing English, the same as I am writing with you in English. And there are others like me: smart, healthy youth who are neglected, struggling on their own with no chances, while the old people are just acting their same old clown show over and over again.
Last edited by strangeskies; Aug 03, 2014 at 05:54 PM.
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