Oh right, sorry

Well, it's hard to explain but before I self harm I generally feel a detachment with the World, with people, with anything. I feel as though nothing is real and that I'm just 'plugged in' to this fake reality. I self harm to try and bring myself back, to try and reassure myself that I'm human. My head gets so crowded with noises, voices and racing thoughts, that I feel like I'm on some kind of powerful drug, out of my head on it and I cut myself to bring me back.

It's generally a very peaceful (not sure if that's the right word to use) moment when I'm like that. I do not self harm out of rage and feel very little emotion. It's my totem.

Does that sound familiar to a BPD sufferer? Maybe it does, I do not know much about the disorder.