euphy: It´s a strong word you use, "obliterated" but I think I understand that feeling. Being alone for a long time, not necessary completely lacking contacts, but having a feeling of being lonely makes you (and me) somewhat distansed to your feelings. You can´t allow to feel too much because the feeling you will get is probably the one of despair, that´s the case for me. I though feel quite a lot and the feelings are almost always troublesome.

If you want to share, why do you, as me myself, have no friends and no job? When I got my university degree I thought of a quite bright career with a lot of opportunities but it didn´t turn out that way.