(((((((((Candy))))))))))))))
I am so sorry I didn't see this earlier
You FEEL like a loser, I can understand that. Heck, I feel like that a lot of the time as well. BUT (yes, there's a but) it's not true. You aren't a loser. Not at all. You've managed this far, even with everything going bad around you and feeling like crap, you've come this far. That's a GOOD thing.
It is emotionally draining to do stuff, and yeah that includes SIng.
Don't cut, or at least don't try. You're so entirely worth so much and entirely loveable and wonderful. I wouldn't be as much of a happy person, if not for you. I mean that with all sincerity.
Like I said, PM me if you want to chat. I DO want to hear from you.