Sometimes I think I'm very depressed and mentally ill. Then other times I read stories of things other people do and think, "Oh give me a break. I'm completely normal compared to that. It's ridiculous to even consider the idea of therapy when I don't do anything like that."

I have a lot of thoughts like, "Literally the only way to escape all of this would be to kill myself." I'll get super frustrated with a situation and how no one will take me seriously, and then I'll think, "I could take all of those pills in my medicine cabinet. Then they would believe me." I know I wouldn't do it, though, no matter how much it feels like the only option. I'd be too scared to..which sucks in a way because that basically means I have no options if I'm afraid of the only one that exists.

I read stories of people cutting themselves and then think I'm ridiculous for even thinking I'm bad off because I've never done anything like that. I can't picture myself doing something like that, the thought that it would accomplish anything just doesn't enter my mind.

I'm really confused on whether these thoughts I have mean anything at all or if they're just my way of being internally melodramatic.