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Welcome to PC.

Sounds exactly what's happened with me in the past! It's scary to trust another person with our secrets and pain because we rarely come acrosss someone who will help without judging us.

Have you thought about writing her a note stating briefly what you're holding back and not telling her? It's sometimes a lot easier than actually speaking it. I know I've told my therapists different stuff that I've never told anyone, and it's the most nervewracking thing ever but once I did I felt so much better for it. Just a bit of weight lifted off your shoulders. (A burden shared is a burden lessened, or something like that)

So you've been seeing her for a month, sometimes it takes a LONG time to trust our therapists, it really does.

Have you talked to her about any of your fears or feelings around telling her about your secret, or why you're 'holding back'?

You can go into as much detail as you want here I think, we're more than willing to listen (as long as it's in a good forum/section for the most support).

Please take your time in therapy, it's a long and hard process at time. You'll get there.

Ask for help, I'm sure your therapist will be willing to help.