Freefallin, have you considered that there is a connection between how you dismiss the significance of your suicidal thoughts, and the fact that you are depressed and thinking about suicide?

Your picture says "worthless," you call yourself "melodramatic," and you assume that nobody will take you seriously. IN the same way, you act as though thinking about suicide is no big deal. Now, I am not depressed (anymore, although I used to dismiss my own symptoms too when I was), but if someone told me I was worthless, being melodramatic, and that nobody would take me seriously, do you think that I would start feeling worse? In the same way, do you think treating yourself that way might be contributing to your problem?

Although you may not have the same symptoms as other people, your symptoms and the way you talk are consistent with someone who suffers from depression, and if you continue to dismiss your own suffering then your suffering will probably continue.