I just don't know how to do it anymore.
The little things bother me the most.
I hold grudges and resentment for years and years.
I get so angry, I feel like my blood could boil. then, I cut myself. it's messed up, but I feel better.

I get angry and want to punch and fight. It's usually when I feel helpless. Or when I feel slighted or wronged.
example: my husband and I gave this woman we know a very nice big TV. Her husband wanted it, but she didn't.

She put it outside and it got rained on. I was furious because I really liked that TV. If she had kept it, I would have been glad for her. but because she put it outside in the rain and I thought it was broken, I was very angry. It turns out that the TV still works and my friend ( the lady's' daughter in law )is using it. When I found out it was working and being used, I was no longer angry. I was happy it was being enjoyed.