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Old Aug 03, 2014, 10:12 PM
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Originally Posted by tigergirl View Post
(((((((Teal))))))))

With the times you and your T have talked about SI - has she ever mentioned the attention connection or is it more that you are scared that will happen?

(I know some T's do take that direction; but many thankfully see beyond that idea and can help)
... I don't think she comments on it one way or another. I think she knows I have a big issue with being "needy/attention seeking" and if she mentioned that thats what she thought I was doing - it would probably permanently shut me down so it's probably best not to say anything. My whole life i've been accused of being annoying/overly emotional for what felt like any and every reaction I made, especially crying. So she has mentioned that that is my way of crying. Of the times we have talked about it, she has said that the scars/cutting are just symptoms of a deeper issue/hurt. It frustrates me because she said last session that I was doing better (and I really was) so i'm kind of even more embarrassed to mention this. I think I likely won't because it's the only way I can prove to myself that attention is not what I want.

Thanks for your kind words everybody. I don't think the burn is that bad, it's small, white and relatively painless. I think keeping it covered will suffice and everything else is as discreet as always.
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