I get so anxious I hurl which leads to an anxiety about hurling. I had this under control and then lost my support system a year ago. That person is out of my life and no longer wants to hear from me which causes me great anxiety. Tonight I blocked him on Facebook because we have mutual friends and when he comments in our mutual friends' posts I want to hurl. Instead of bringing relief, I'm pretty sure 'll be tossing my cookies tonight.

I just started a new job and i'm too anxious.to.sleep well. Friday I struggled through my work day an ended up throwing up during the work day. Luckily I am able to do some of my work from home so there were no witnesses, but I fear next time I won't be so lucky.

As I write this I am fighting the urge to spew. I have meetings most of the day yesterday and fear I will throw up at the meetings. The anxiety over this is preventing me from sleeping and I fear I will screw up because I'm overtired. I'm scared. I'm anxious. I don't want to throw up any more.