Hello well I'm just posting this here because I figured that out of all the places on the Internet I could go that this is the best place I have available. I've asked this question before but nobody could ever give me an answer. I've always felt like for years that I've been a target on the Internet. I consider this a reality rather than just a personal feeling or suspicion. I have been banned from so many forums and websites, abused in multiplayer gaming, and bullied for doing certain things that other accepted people are doing yet nobody gets on their case for anything.

I consider the Internet a great tool of communication that is ruined by other people and how they choose to behave. Considering how I have also had personal issues growing up, and I have been diagnosed with depression, I consider it very gruesome that I cannot even get any support or respect on the Internet of all places. This is supposed to be an anonymous (or personal, if you choose to reveal yourself), tool of communication to spread knowledge and understanding.

So I was wondering if people here could help me with my very specific issue. Have any of you ever experienced this personal, all encompassing personal discrimination? I am like a ghostly shadow these days on the Internet, having been ostracised from so many places, I just sit from a distance and observe others as they go about their activities. I feel left out, targeted, attacked and betrayed that a technological medium with such amazing positive potential has treated me like dirt when I am depressed and needed an escape and comfort zone from my real life problems.

I am considering leaving the Internet for good by the end of this year and never coming back, because of what I described above. I was robbed and defiled of my right to be a person with a username and an opinion who is treated with respect. This might seem a bit grim what I am saying but if I had some way to take the memories from my brain and show you the pain and suffering the Internet has caused me I would do it. I would post it to the forum and let everybody see.