not at all.

just considering different options for the future but hard to start/to decide. I have very low energy at the moment so I haven't started any of this:

-start exercise (although I feel watched by other people which makes me very uncomfortable but I want to overcome that) because it may reduce anxiety and make me look better so I have better chances in jobs/ with other people
-get some online training to specialize in something so I can get a better job
-read more books so I don't feel intellectually stranded
(-I have this insane dream about doing a phd sometimes. but no clue about what, when, with whom or why. will just mean being stuck at least three more years and even reducing chances to get a job later. so if I wake up one day and have a fantastic idea for it I will just start collecting material.)
-maybe try online dating again if I can afford although it confirmed all my prejudices when I tried first time and was basically useless
-maybe I can bring myself to go out alone sometime
-recover some friendships
-travel if possible