Hi everyone. Just making you aware that I experienced someone else's suicide late on Friday night. I caught last train home after going out dancing. The tradgic event happened shortly after left main station at a small quiet station which the train I was on was just passing through. I was sitting in front coach. Suddenly I heard something hitting the train with force and it felt like the train was losing control. I felt the impact where I was sitting. It was frightening. Waited a while wondering what had happened but feeling that it wasn't good. Then heard announcement that an incident has occurred at station and later the train conductor said that someone was hit by train. People were talking amongst each other about the news with shock and looking out of windows at what was going on. Could see blue flashing lights and security, train staff around bridge area. It was deeply distressing and painful. I felt really depressive. Since the event on train, the pictures, images, sounds, movements, and voices and feelings have been replaying in my mind. Yesterday, I felt need to go back to the site and did by myself. I wrote a letter earlier on in day that I took out of bag to read and was talking out loud as walked along platform. I spent some time around the bridge area too trying to figure out how the person /where from exactly the person jumped and hit train. I was preparing myself before I got there for a lot of flowers and cards where it occurred but didn't see anything. I'm thinking of going back there though to pay tribute, leave something. I don't know who it is though at moment, what age they were etc. But I've been feeling greatly affected by whole thing. I feel the person must have been suffering from overhwelming problems and had depressive illness. Or could of taken drugs. I don't know. But I understand person would of been in horrible place before I just wish them and their family love and peace.
So, now I have been close to someone's suicide, I know what its like from the the other side.