I don't think this particularly goes in the forum, but here is where I feel comfortable.

The thing is, at work I am now working with someone that makes me feel insecure. I've with time learnt to try and not take her ways personal. I don't know what transferrance is going on between her and I? Anyways this morning I told her I won't be at work this Sunday Morning as I am going out Saturday night. I said I'm pretty boring normally and never go out, but hubby's works friend has invited us out. I then said that I sooooo don't want to go.

This woman replied "You never know, you may just enjoy yourself" but it was said half in jest and half in,well I'm not sure. The searing pain of humilation that went through me was unbelievable.
I felt rage and anger at myself and at her for Exposing me, but exposing what? I replied to her that I hadn't even given the idea a thought that I may enjoy myself, I had automactically told myself I don't want to go, not my cup of tea. I felt shamed that she had pointed out this "error" to me. Felt like I am such a pathetic victim. Always thinking, I wont enjoy this, or this isn't for me or me me me me me. I guess partly its fear, I fear mixing with people so much that thinking I won't enjoy it, is a defense. But still the shame was hard!

I managed eventually to think of T and hear her voice saying "yes but maybe her life experiences are different to yours? She doesnt have to fear people?" that helped me calm down.

I guess I'm just looking for some insight into what was actually happening here?????????? any ideas?