You're right, Pat. I do feel that I have to be perfect in my marriage. That's why I keep wondering what's wrong with me or what I did wrong. It's killing me. He says it's nothing I've done. He told me it's a stupid decision he made and that I shouldn't blame myself. I'm trying hard not to do that. I'm not the one that messed up. It's him. And he did it all by himself.