Dear Sober Man,

I've been in AA for over 15 years and have not had a drink in all that time. However, I am working with my Psychiatrist to titrate off of Xanax and another benzodiazapine which I have been prescribed consistantly for 27 years. When I have stress - especially stress that is reoccurring, my first thought is to reach for a benzo. Lately I've also had thoughts of how nice a glass of wine would feel. To be numbed out a little so I could relax or feel better about myself and my life.
If I didn't have AA, Pills Anonymous, a great Sponsor, a therapist and a Psychiatrist that listen to my HONEST struggles with staying sober and taking my medication as directed I don't know what or where I would be.
Perhaps a support system would really help. I'm so glad you have a year sober - but please don't try and go it alone. Going in to a residential program gave you a foundation but also protected you from "living life on life's terms."
Hope I don't sound preachy...but sounds like we are facing a lot of the same challenges.
Please let me know if I can help.