thanks for the suggestions jax... i do have pets, i have a bunny who is very sweet plus other little ones, but lately with this funk i've been in i haven't been spending enough time with any of them, even though i love them all. i'm just so damn tired all the time, i never seem to have any energy at all. it does help just to have them there and to know they love me unconditionally. when i get home at night my bunny is always waiting for me with his paws up on the bars wanting mushes. its nice that my little guys are always so happy to see me. i just wish i had more energy.

i've been trying really hard not to si. i haven't since saturday, the longest i've gone in awhile, though the temptation is almost always there. trying really hard to control it. i do write stuff down in a notebook, sometimes it does help just to get it out. sometimes though it seems to make things worse, brings everything to the surface you know? i probably should try the puzzle thing, i used to do crosswords all the time and i loved them. but i really wish my computer at home still worked. there are places here where you can get a used computer but they are still expensive.

thank you again jax, and canders too, for the support and the hugs. i've already said it a bunch of times but i have to say again that i am really glad i found this place.

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