When you're ready to take the plunge (which I have and survived...bleah) would you be willing to go on a military/CIA type suicide mission? Remembering my mindset at the time I doubt I'd be in any condition to be of service but I've thought about that since. It would probably involve some hefty traveling too and I hate traveling. It would be interesting though if the government had some kind of suicidal recruitment. I'm guessing not...talk about a PR nightmare.