Hello Blues47.

I have also attempted and am still here..
No, I don't think I would. If I were "ready" I would want to go on my own terms, not anyone else's, and not for the greater good. As you know, when you are having suicidal thoughts, you aren't necessarily ready to die; you're desperate and looking to end your pain. Depression is self serving, not self sacrificing. I doubt that a suicide bomber is actually suicidal in the way that you are describing. My question to you would be why do you want to go on a suicide mission? What would this accomplish?

Best wishes to you.