Pitiful day of going over my hurts , wants, pains . There were some positive moments in the day but I got into these worst inner habits of beating myself inwardly for my hurts, wants and pains. I keep losing sight of the good in not only the day but in my other situations. This really does hurt me. It robs me of my positive feelings about myself or my situations and actually puts undue pressure on my relationships . I seem to over want some very specialized attention. I think I need an overnight restart. I need to let go and stop personalizing everything that happens that misses my wants or expectations. Things, I need to realize, are not as bad they seem . It is stopping that is hard.