flours: I think it´s great if you manage to do one or several things of thoose you mention here. I do small things like exercise and going out on my own and I think it´s better than nothing. It doesn´t make me deal with larger issues that I have to put more at stake like risking getting rejected but it gives me somewhat more than just my apartments four walls and my negative thoughts.

To get further I need therapy and that´s my largest problem at the moment beside all others issues, how to continue in therapy.