Hi Appalachian, re: the guilt- could you print out some of the replies on here and (after you've got it!!
) if the guilt came up then just refer back to them, could help a little???
Or write down each of your thoughts/concerns as they
may come into your head- and next to them something to counteract them e.g. if there are other people
NOT judging me why be so hard on myself, so who am I harming.................even (!!) well at least it's not a cucumber
. Then refer back to that and keep reminding yourself of..................
And a wild thought........even give it a name if it helps
But this: "That would be a lot of money wasted in a moment of clouded thinking" it isn't clouded thinking is it??!!
. I'd say that this is the part of
you that wants to break through, away from the prejudices out there,
maybe?? Perhaps it's more
them that are clouding your thinking??
And even make a deal/promise with yourself,
if you feel like throwing it away, you're going to wait for one week (??) before you make that decision.
And in that time- you're back to us, feeling better about it and challenging those thoughts of..........again
until you get that there's
nothing wrong with it/you and feel good about yourself
just the way you are And
why not??!!!!
Alison