I'm done with my pdoc!! She hurt my feelings and basically hasn't help me improve!!
A little history how I was diagnosed:
In my job I kept thinking something wasn't right. Went to my doc, she had me fill out some check list. She came back and said," don't freak out, but I'm leaning towards Bipolarity". I was actually fine as my grandmother had "Manic Depression". She prescribed an antidepressant. Which helped some, though was still having those days of like, how'd I get so organized, do this or that etc.....

So, I had a really bad sinus infection, couldn't get in to see my doc till like 3 days. So went to this doc I've used bf. he prescribed Predisome and gave my a steroid shot and breathing treatment. Came back 3 days later had another shot and and breathing treatment.

Well, I was high, up almost to heaven, literally, did you know Bipolar should not have steroids, bad, bad, for us. Could die from them. So, my principal noticed my irrational behavior. I finally went to see my doc, she was really concerned told me to see my counselor. She said,"let me check her schedule". Amazingly, there had been a cancelation, app. Open in 5 minutes. (I think God was working on me). So, I see my counselor. She diagnosed me with Bipolar 2. Went home called my principal, she recommended me to go some place to crash from the steroids. I called my counselor, she recommended a behavior inpatient facility.
So, I was admitted, stayed 5 nights and 6 days. That's how I started with my pdoc. She diagnosed me with Bipolar 1, I had a Hypomanic episode induced by the steroids. She didn't follow up with my counselor, as I'd been going to her several years.

So, I've been seeing my pdoc for about 2 years, of those 2 years I've been begging for help with the severe depression I was having. She put me on Lamitcal. It hasn't helped. I wanted to increase it today. She, man she went through the history of the Lamitical, she kept saying I'd call in asking to lower it and then increase it, at each appointment she said I did the same.

Wait a minute, who's the doctor here with knowledge of medication??? Me, only diagnosed 2 years ago? Who's getting paid here??.

She said to take 150 for 2 weeks, then increase to 200mg. She asked when did I want to come back, I said 3 months, she said, "no" as I will be calling her. What??! What the H***? She said come back in a month.

This pains me so
For freaking 2 years I've had severe depression, she hasn't helped at all. I've even signed a release of my files for her to talk, view my file with my counselor. Did she do that? NO!!

My job has been in jeopardy bc of the depression. I resigned due to that and some other reasons, but when down, it was very difficult to do my job. Hard at home. To make my kids a freaking sandwich seemed so hard, seriously! I did it, you do what you need to do.
I'm getting a second opinion. And going to get a copy of my file. Just pisses me off and pains me so.
Thanks for listening. Thankfully, I've got a very supportive husband and mom, counselor, doc. and you guys too!